My Poem Collections

These are some of the poems that I wrote. Hope that you'll enjoy them!!! Comments and critics are warmly welcomed. However, there are some poems that I choose not to publish. :-)

Ars Gratia Artis

(art for the sake of art)

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The Winter Snow

The winter snow - I do not dare

Even if the flurries are fair

For my heart has stopped to bear

The dearest thing in life to care

 

Thought that we would be a pair

Giving each a love to share

Alas! It's like catching the air

You're everywhere, yet so rare

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Nasib Anak Tiri

Termenung 'ku seorang diri

Dan hati dipasung sepi

Dan kehampaan sanubari

Hidup serasa tak berarti

 

Dalamnya lautan t'lah kuselami

Namun apa yang kudapati

Aku hanyalah anak tiri

Aku tak tahu apa yang kucari

 

Rona merah matahari

Menyilaukan mata hati

T'lah lama 'ku berjalan kaki

Entah hendak kemana lagi

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Kulihat Mentari di Timur (visi seorang optimis)

Andai waktu rajutan tali

Ingin hati pilin kembali

Suka duka yang kualami

Hadir lagi dalam dimensi

 

Akan tetapi...

Tak'kan kubiarkan semua terjadi

Bila masa lalu 'kan menghantui

Membebat alam pikiran dan hati

 

Sebab di Timur kulihat mentari

Ada harapan bagi yang mencari

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Nyanyi Sunyi (sebuah sekstet bebas)

Laguku terkurung, dalam kalbu

Senduku murung, tertutup debu

Nadaku terkungkung, berderu-deru

Dan semua hanya misteri

Laksana melodi orang tuli

Bernyanyi sunyi tanpa arti

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Years of Darkness (a septima for exhortation)

Years of darkness, years of darkness

Rolling the pace, without the grace

Despite the space, exist the graves

 

But The Lord was good as always

Gentle and kind is His great face

As we are lost in His embrace

Believe in Him that He would save

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Bila Atap-Atap Langit Runtuh (sebuah soneta bergaya bebas)

Mungkin sesuatu itu tak pernah kembali

Sejak fajar menyingsing, hingga dini hari

Kutunggu dan kutunggu, sampai hari berganti

Dan hanya sunyi sendiri, bertembang elegi

Biarkan atap-atap langit itu runtuh

Dan bintang-bintang diangkasa jatuh

Menghujani relung jiwaku, hingga berdebu

Hingga tersapu, keombak yang bergemuruh

 

Dua tangan yang tak asing menyentuh

"Yuk kita kembali, hari t'lah berlalu."

Kujalani tapak-tapak tanah berdebu

Dijalan yang sama, dua tahun yang lalu

'Ku diam membisu, berharap syahdu

Bila atap-atap langit itu runtuh

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Kepanasan (an expression of gratitude)

Satu dua puluh, dini hari, jalan sepi

Terjaga 'ku dikursi jati, hingga pagi

Kebingungan? Tidak lagi, Insomnia? Ah, geli

Lalu? Hanya kepanasan yang menjadi-jadi!

 

Ranting-ranting diam membisu

Air kran suam-suam kuku

Nafasku tersengal, oleh tingginya suhu

Turunkan hujan, Tuhan! Kubeli seribu!

 

Hai anak manusia! sahutNya diatas

Hujan deras, bernafas cemas

Udara panas kau lawan tegas

Egomu sungguh diluar batas

 

Mana ucapan syukurmu?

Atas langit biru atau ombak berderu

Kapan mulutmu berhenti beradu

Dengan Aku, Penciptamu?

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Envy The Birds in The Air

 

In the midst, whenever I glanced the birds in the sky

Desiring flying up high with them, to liberty

Glazing through the wind, closer to the horizon

Dancing wings together, nor the nature will stop them

 

Here I lived, in the desert of loneliness

Wondering where helps might come from

When obstacles slipped me down

Or when past scars and bruises hurt me again

 

Joy and peace were just seeming unrealistic

Or it could be death is about to embrace my life

Sooner or later, I am out of my own sight

But then, a bright shining light passed through the clouds

 

As the angle of God fell with grace, from heavenly place

"Behold, for the Lord is with you, forever and amen"

Then I feel my cup is refilled, my strength is restored

The sense of emptiness fades away along the next journey

 

Yes I envy the birds in the air

For they comfort one another, cry for each other

But, they envy me more than I envy them

For the Lord is by my side

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My Mother, The Heart of My Soul

There's more than the words "thank you" that I want to express

Unto you, my mother, the heart of my soul

For all your loving tender, your passion, and compassion

For the yearning in you, taking care of me

 

I remember when I was falling asleep in your embrace

Feeling so close, your love flows gently from your heart to mine

Then I heard my name, whispered in your prayer devotion

Wishing me, the very best of my life would be

 

How truly and deeply your love is

For your love is giving, never asking in return

'Though tearful pain and sorrow washing over your soul

But your heart's rejoicing when you see I'm growing and walking

 

Mother, today is a special day for you

But you are more special than the day that makes you special

'Though the bluest ocean and the highest mountain has separated us today

But through God's love, our love has been united

 

 

(a small dedication as a thankfulness of your unfailing love on this Mother's day)

                    

                                                        love from distance,

 

 

                                                            Xiao Heng

 

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What A Life I Found in Him

Journey to the endless valley of death that I walked

Endured the pains and sorrow that wouldn't let me go

Scene of hatred, despair, and wickedness were on my sight

Ultimate punishment's close to the edge of my life

Satan waved his hands at me, for a new follower is about to come

 

Church! Oh, church, where are you? For you are the Temple of God

Hide me beneath your sanctuary, for I'm afraid to death

Roar of the angels of hell was calling loud my name

In a glance, the curtain of the Most Holy Place was torn

Scared still, I felt my flesh flying high, leaving my worldly garments

'Till I opened my eyes, finding myself sitting next to Jesus, my savior

 

 

                                                            A Rapture ???

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Friends and Friend Forever

 

Some come, the others might go

Each of them left a personal imprint onto our hearts

Thousands of memories of laughter and sharing

A handful of precious moments when we cry onto each other's shoulders

 

What are friends anyway?

Why don't we sometimes, feel their presence when we are among them?

Why then, should there be tears flowing upon our eyes when we leave them?

Why is there such a day that separates us? Oh Lord, why?

 

For thousands of questions and wonders overwhelm my head

To find the true meaning of friends and being friend

Until someday, I found the true meaning of it

As I learned from my Christian teacher

 

For there are three kinds of love offered in this world

Philia, the love between friends, brothers, and sisters

Eros, the love between husbands and wives

But then, there's love that's eternal, called Agape

Endures from our Father in heaven above

That will remain and stay, even when the time stops moving

That's why, we call Him, Friend Forever

 

 

(inspired by: "...and friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them..."

                                                                                 Michael W. Smith)

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My Lovely Lilies

 

Fall has visited us twice

The leaves fell down and kissed the earth

Blown by the wind and swept by the rain

Leaving no prints on the ground

 

The lilies that I planted last year died in the rain

Tears washed over my soul, my heart faced regret

I stood still by the edge of the shore

Put my lovely flower on the sparkling water

Good night, sweet dream, honey

May our love swim forever in the darkest and deepest ocean

 

                                                                              (u probably don't get it right?)

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Hilang Untuk Kembali (sebuah rapsodi)

 

Ohh...malam sunyi itu menghampiriku lagi

Rembulan pun menyapa, dari balik awan kelam

Bintang berserakan di angkasa, saling beradu cahaya

Menyinari hati insan-insan yang berduka

 

Anganku pun terhenti sejenak

Mengalir memoir memori yang tersisa dihati

Kenangan indah kala cinta bersemi

Cinta suci terdampar diseberang lautan

 

Musim semi dibulan April, kala kita saling berjanji

Berdua, bersimpuh dihadapan Allah yang kuasa

Berjanji seia sekata, satu untuk selamanya

Beriring langkah tegap, menyongsong hari esok nan cerah

 

Dua bulan lamanya memadu kasih asmara

Datang juga ombak dan badai menerpa

Apa daya kita? Bahtera baru nan indah namun labil lagi rapuh

Hancur berkeping-keping dan tenggelam dalam lautan keputusasaan

 

Aku menjerit, berteriak, "Oh, salah siapakah ini?"

Hatiku tercabik, jiwaku menangis, terlukai oleh goresan ilusi

Seminggu lamanya'ku hanyut dalam problema 'tuk cari jawaban

Akhirnya kudapati bahwa dua insan perfeksionis takkan pernah bersatu

 

Deru kendaraan tak lagi menggangguku dimalam sunyi itu

'Ku terbius dalam imajinasi dan khayalan masa lalu

Dua tangan yang tak asing menyentuh pundakku, membuyarkan halusinasiku

"Yuk, kita kembali, malam sudah larut," ia berujar

 

Kami pun menyusuri jalan setapak disekitar danau itu

Kembali kekamar dan menggoreskan inspirasi kedalam puisi

Puisi perpisahan yang menggetarkan jiwa, tiap kali ku membacanya

Namun, malam itu 'ku dapati bahwa ada sesuatu yang hilang untuk kembali

 

                                                                (Seattle, at night)

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A World Without Faces

 

I dreamed about a world without faces last night

Where the eyes had no place to stick, and ears had nowhere to hang

Where the upper lips and lower lips could no longer kiss each other while we were silent

And where the fleshy noses buried their very own nostrils

 

I saw all dark, heard all silent, and spoke no words

In my dream, we were all holding hands together

Forming circle, 'though we never knew how a circle look like

Comforting each other with arms around, nothing else

 

And life was so beautiful

We shed no tears, for the eyes were gone

We told no lies, for the lips went away

We spoke through our hearts, listened with our minds

 

Then I woke up, and cried for it was only a dream

Hoping that dream would take into its shape someday

Embracing the bedtime of the saddest person on earth

To let him feel, the beauty of a world without faces

 

                                            (dedicated for those in despair and sorrow)

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